There will come a time in your life when things seem unsure, unfair, and you don't know where to find answers and solutions. You feel lost and alone, not able to hold onto the strength in your heart that normally guides your motivation & inspiration. It's ironic how the bad things happen at once... as if they follow in sync. People find you temperamental, and moody, and the best way to describe your own mood is, depressing. On the exterior, life is, seemingly, great! You are privileged, healthy, and have supportive friends, yet, you are unhappy with the way things are going. Being strong and confidant that there is a way out, that there is a solution, that things will change, and that you will find happiness again, are extremely crucial in these times.

The problem is not with self-doubt, it is often about the realization that, maybe, you are not supposed to do what you are doing. That you fooled yourself, thinking that you could do it, that you have what it takes... but maybe you don't. Maybe you are not really that good looking, or that talented, or that smart, or that vocally brilliant, etc, etc... Is that self-doubt, or just being honest with yourself about what your true strengths really are? Crying in a helpless state of uncertainty and feeling sorry for yourself will be part of the process of just getting through it. Then, it's the challenge of believing in yourself again, picking up the pieces, alone in your own world, and fighting this "game," no matter what it takes. The "game" is called survival of the fittest. It's like that saying in the TV industry, 'if you can't take the heat in the kitchen, then fuck off!" Harsh, but such is life. In the rush & obsession for fame, fortune, success and that 'perfect, beautiful life,' we forget that we need to love and be loved on our way to get there. Else, that fame & fortune will end up in tears and dismay. Staying grounded, and not infatuated, that is the real challenge. As bad as this day was for me, it's in my heart that I know, the truth to my own life lies, and it's really up to me, only me, to make it, or break it.

Never stop believing in yourself.